Confessions of a jam addict

I have confession today, down the road with an authorised priest for the purpose of obtaining forgiveness.  It’s where I confess my actual sin.  There are two types of actual sin, venial and mortal. 

 Venial – a less serious offence against the law of God.  Some venial sins are deliberate.  They displease God.  Some are not deliberate.  They are committed through fear or without thinking. If we do our best to improve, Our Lord is pleased.  A sin can be venial in two ways.  Firstly, when the evil done is not seriously wrong.  Secondly, when the evil done is seriously wrong; the sinner sincerely believes it is only slightly wrong, or does not give full consent.  

 Mortal – a grevious offence against The law of God.  Three things are necessary  to make sins mortal.  Firstly, the thought, desire, action, word or omission, must be seriously wrong or considered seriously wrong.  Secondly, the sinner must know it is seriously wrong. Thirdly, the sinner must consent to it.  

To Make a good confession, I must admit to my sins, tell the truth and leave nothing out.  These are the chief qualities of a good confession.   It’s freeing to know ones sins.  It does not get me down.  I am human, I am bound to commit them, yet I will not let them bind my life.  I don’t like the way they make me feel.  The same with sugar. I don’t feel good after eating it. I feel sick.

Why do I go to confession frequently? Because I know it’s good for me.  Do I think I’m holier than anyone? No, not at all. In fact, it helps me when I’m feeling depressed.  It cleanses my soul.  It helps with my struggles. It helps me know myself.  I may never get rid of some of my addictions, but I won’t give up fighting against them. Confession is a sacrament.  What’s a sacrament?  A sacrament is an outward sign of inward grace.  

One eats good food for our bodies right? Well the sacarament of communion where a catholic receives the body and blood soul and divinity of our lord Jesus Christ is food for ones soul.  We drink kombucha for vitamins and probiotics.  Well consider the sacrament of confession medicine for ones soul.  I was addicted to sugar.  Addictions keep us from Really living.  I used to be addicted to sugar. I love jam! However, there is so much sugar in jam! I wanted to make a decision which changed my life.  I wanted to cut out the bad things. So, I cut out sugar. When I cut out the sugar, I seriously had more control over other failings.  

Make sense?

Make sugar-free jam?

Recipe for organic berry and chia jam (organic berries don’t have pesticides. If you are trying to change to organic, start with berries.  Non organic have a tonne of spray, I was told by a farmer, you can’t ever get rid of it.  Not even by washing them through a dishwasher! Yikes. 

1 cup of organic berries, fresh or frozen.

1-2 tablespoons of rice malt.

2 tablespoons of chia seeds.

Place all ingredients into a saucepan with 2 tablespoons of water, and blend with a stick blender, or leave as is. Heat pan over a medium heat until he mixture begins to bubble. Reduce the heat and stir until thickened.   Store in an airtight container for a week or freeze for up to a few months. 

I confess, this jam doesn’t last long in our house.


Go easy on yourself if you desire to give up sugar. It takes time, if you fall off the wagon,  forgive yourself and get back.  Don’t be disheartened.  It’s a journey.  You might feel a little nervous about admitting any addictions.  Can you talk to someone you trust about it? This post is not about judgement, no human can judge another.  But our struggles or habits with food, can have a domino affect with our struggle in our souls.  For me, I know the two were linked.  Do I still struggle? Absolutely, but I’m aware of my struggles and that’s the difference.   

You may wonder, if I  ever get nervous about confession? Yes, I do Sometimes.  Only because Old hairy legs doesn’t want me to go.  Who’s that? Me in the winter yes, but old hairy legs is another name I call satan. He knows there’s grace involved.  He doesn’t want me to receive it.  He wants me to forget that it’s totally private, it’s Jesus himself not just a man.  When I leave the confessional, I leave all my sins behind. I feel so relieved after it.  I say my penance and make reparation.  I say sorry to who ever I need to.  Is it humbling? Absolutely. Freedom is in forgiveness.  Asking for forgiveness is humbling.  Without humility, we can not be like little children who need their loving Heavenly Father.  A child needs to be able to trust they can tell their parent anything. I confess I’m sometimes afraid in life, but trust He is with me in everything.  As an adult, I don’t fear God, I fear living without Him and because of that I desire to please him and do my utmost best not to sin again and eat sugar-free jam forever with Him in heaven.

Love Leah🌿

Get into the habit of blooming gut gummies


We can all get off track with our lifestyles.

Do we eat too much sugar? 

Are we addicted to sugar?

Are our children?

Could they benefit from more prayer from us for their habits?

Pray to St Monica who was a saint not in a habit, she was a wife to a man who abused her verbally, a mother and her feast day is tomorrow the 27th August.    (Prayer below) Her once wayward son was St Augustine who lived a colourful life. Through his mother’s prayers, it is believed he came back to the truth.

Speaking of the truth – 

Are we suffering from our own hands and grabbing too many sweat things made with refined sugar?

Chances are we’ve answered yes to one or more of these questions.

Well it’s time to take small steps to do something about it.  We can start by doing away with those sugary lollies which will do nothing but rot your teeth, kill your gut and leave you feeling guilty.  

Come back to wholesome treats.  

Are your kids addicted to sugar? This may help wean them off.  

These little babies will help your liver, provide you with amino acid glycine which assist the liver ridding toxins.

It’s great for injury ( are you an athlete?)

Do you suffer from insomnia? Eat one of these before bed I me. Research shows eating glycine before bed can enhance sleep.

It boosts metabolism, reduces heart burn to name a few health benefits.

(It’s important you use powdered gelatine from pasture fed cows) can be bought online or from a health/organic food store. Vegans can use agar.

For boosting immunity try these –  (using fermented fruit and adding gelatine when cooled helps even more with probiotic help, thanks for the tip Katie!)

Dissolve 3 1/2 tablespoons of gelatin in 1/3 cup of water, it will expand and become rubbery, (this process is called blooming) Let this sit for 5 mins.

Peel and Chop 4 ripe kiwi fruit, 1/2 cup of lemon juice (I also used orange) in saucepan on low hea until almost boiled.  Turn off heat and allow to cool, stir in crumbled gelatine with a fork until dissolved.  

1/2 tablespoons of vitamin c powder (optional and added after the liquid has cooled)

Add 1/2 tablespoon of rice malt.

You can use a stick blender but not on high to purΓ©e it at this stage. I omitted this part.

Pour into square lunch box, allow to set in fridge for 1 hour.

Cut into bite sized squares.

These store up to a week in an air tight container in fridge. (Recipe from Sarah Wilson’s Simplicious recipe book)
For bulletproof coffee squares – replace all ingredients except gelatine with 1/2 cup organic black coffee, 1/2 cup almond milk 1/4 teaspoon of vanilla extract, ( I made my own if anyone wants to know how, please write in comments)  follow the same procedure above.   For bubble tea, add small cut up pieces to your favourite glass of milk, while praying this prayer,

‘St Monica,

Exemplary Mother of the great Augustine,
you perseveringly pursued your wayward son

not with wild threats

but with prayerful cries to heaven.

Intercede for all mothers in our day

so that they may learn to draw their children to God.

Teach them how to remain close to their children,

even the prodigal sons and daughters

who have sadly gone astray’ 


Happy floral Friday my friends, 

Leah 🌿

A life of intention bound by love and maybe coffee


I’ve sipped the last drop of my bullet proof coffee.

John Coltrane Melodies dance in the sunlight as I read a little of the book ‘Organizing for the spirit’ which is by internationally recognised professional organiser Sunny Schlenger.

How can we Organise better the ‘stuff’ in our lives?

We need to shift our perspective.

Do you wish to be Martha or Mary? 

Sure, we need to clean and organise, run the kids around, live in this busy world but not of it.  

What do I mean by not being of the world? I mean not attached to it, our things, our life, our people.

 Like Christ,  we are just passing by.  This walk of life is the beginning of a journey, one that lives intentionally with God’s will in mind, dying to ourself, so that when we pass we can actually start to live!  

God does not say, “In exchange for your own heart, I will give you a will of pure spirit”.  No, He gives us a heart, a human heart, like Christ’s.  I don’t have one heart for loving God and another for loving people.  I love Christ and the father, the Holy Spirit and our Lady with the same heart with which I love my family, my friends. I shall never tire of repeating this.  We must be very human, for otherwise we cannot be divine’. Josemaria Escriva, Christ is passing by.

Living a life of intention where we are not bound by ‘our own stuff’.  

Where we are not bound by anything.  

Where we can be family because of our love not our blood.

Where we can love each other as brother and sister.  Because the same people who we live with on earth are going to be the same people we will live with forever in heaven!

Where we say we’re going to do something, we are men of our word, we follow through, we do it!

We’re we have no regrets.  Like not seeing your dear friend who has now passed.  Where we say goodbye to another moving on because we said we would. Where we hurt as we let people go because we need to.  Where we learn from our mistakes, ask for forgiveness, forgive others and move on.

It’s good to let our food ferment because it’s better for our bodies.  

I made cream cheese by hanging it in a tea towel and letting the whey drain away to be used in mayonnaises later on.

The jam is sugar free by slow cooking organic berries with chia seeds on the stove.

The sour dough toast which is from the shop, is a rare, once in a blue moon treat for me and because I forgot to make myself a protein batter bowl last night. 

Preparing good food is important. Working in my kitchen is good. But listening to God is better.

So let it not be said that we didn’t listen to God and put our love into action.
‘It isn’t what we say or think that defines us, but what we do’ Jane Austen.

The melodies have stopped, the sun has risen and it’s time to get on with the day. But more coffee first. 

I intend on getting some things done this week that I said I would do, you pray for me and I’ll pray for you!

Blessings this Sunday,
Leah πŸŒΏβ˜•οΈπŸŒΉ