Confessions of a jam addict

I have confession today, down the road with an authorised priest for the purpose of obtaining forgiveness.  It’s where I confess my actual sin.  There are two types of actual sin, venial and mortal. 

 Venial – a less serious offence against the law of God.  Some venial sins are deliberate.  They displease God.  Some are not deliberate.  They are committed through fear or without thinking. If we do our best to improve, Our Lord is pleased.  A sin can be venial in two ways.  Firstly, when the evil done is not seriously wrong.  Secondly, when the evil done is seriously wrong; the sinner sincerely believes it is only slightly wrong, or does not give full consent.  

 Mortal – a grevious offence against The law of God.  Three things are necessary  to make sins mortal.  Firstly, the thought, desire, action, word or omission, must be seriously wrong or considered seriously wrong.  Secondly, the sinner must know it is seriously wrong. Thirdly, the sinner must consent to it.  

To Make a good confession, I must admit to my sins, tell the truth and leave nothing out.  These are the chief qualities of a good confession.   It’s freeing to know ones sins.  It does not get me down.  I am human, I am bound to commit them, yet I will not let them bind my life.  I don’t like the way they make me feel.  The same with sugar. I don’t feel good after eating it. I feel sick.

Why do I go to confession frequently? Because I know it’s good for me.  Do I think I’m holier than anyone? No, not at all. In fact, it helps me when I’m feeling depressed.  It cleanses my soul.  It helps with my struggles. It helps me know myself.  I may never get rid of some of my addictions, but I won’t give up fighting against them. Confession is a sacrament.  What’s a sacrament?  A sacrament is an outward sign of inward grace.  

One eats good food for our bodies right? Well the sacarament of communion where a catholic receives the body and blood soul and divinity of our lord Jesus Christ is food for ones soul.  We drink kombucha for vitamins and probiotics.  Well consider the sacrament of confession medicine for ones soul.  I was addicted to sugar.  Addictions keep us from Really living.  I used to be addicted to sugar. I love jam! However, there is so much sugar in jam! I wanted to make a decision which changed my life.  I wanted to cut out the bad things. So, I cut out sugar. When I cut out the sugar, I seriously had more control over other failings.  

Make sense?

Make sugar-free jam?

Recipe for organic berry and chia jam (organic berries don’t have pesticides. If you are trying to change to organic, start with berries.  Non organic have a tonne of spray, I was told by a farmer, you can’t ever get rid of it.  Not even by washing them through a dishwasher! Yikes. 

1 cup of organic berries, fresh or frozen.

1-2 tablespoons of rice malt.

2 tablespoons of chia seeds.

Place all ingredients into a saucepan with 2 tablespoons of water, and blend with a stick blender, or leave as is. Heat pan over a medium heat until he mixture begins to bubble. Reduce the heat and stir until thickened.   Store in an airtight container for a week or freeze for up to a few months. 

I confess, this jam doesn’t last long in our house.


Go easy on yourself if you desire to give up sugar. It takes time, if you fall off the wagon,  forgive yourself and get back.  Don’t be disheartened.  It’s a journey.  You might feel a little nervous about admitting any addictions.  Can you talk to someone you trust about it? This post is not about judgement, no human can judge another.  But our struggles or habits with food, can have a domino affect with our struggle in our souls.  For me, I know the two were linked.  Do I still struggle? Absolutely, but I’m aware of my struggles and that’s the difference.   

You may wonder, if I  ever get nervous about confession? Yes, I do Sometimes.  Only because Old hairy legs doesn’t want me to go.  Who’s that? Me in the winter yes, but old hairy legs is another name I call satan. He knows there’s grace involved.  He doesn’t want me to receive it.  He wants me to forget that it’s totally private, it’s Jesus himself not just a man.  When I leave the confessional, I leave all my sins behind. I feel so relieved after it.  I say my penance and make reparation.  I say sorry to who ever I need to.  Is it humbling? Absolutely. Freedom is in forgiveness.  Asking for forgiveness is humbling.  Without humility, we can not be like little children who need their loving Heavenly Father.  A child needs to be able to trust they can tell their parent anything. I confess I’m sometimes afraid in life, but trust He is with me in everything.  As an adult, I don’t fear God, I fear living without Him and because of that I desire to please him and do my utmost best not to sin again and eat sugar-free jam forever with Him in heaven.

Love Leah🌿

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